[cry]

I don't understand, not fully. It's like I'm walking through his vivid dream, one event after another... not clear, but blurry. This life is blurry.

Sometimes, most days, I feel as if I am okay... and that I'm doing fine. But then other days, I feel like the only thing I can do is sit and wonder about nothing in particular. I am probably not making sense, but that's okay.

Sigh. I don't even know where I am getting with this. I am just all around frustrated.

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I want to go to Africa. I want to visit Ghana and help those people in poverty. I want to travel there and make a difference. Intro to Africana Studies was not what I thought it was going to be. It has opened my eyes to the other side of this life. I want to donate, I want to give aid, I want to provide encouragement for those who need it. I feel like I am wasting my life not doing things that can help a community in need. Africa is full of corruption... the rich get richer and poor get poorer. I just want to stand up for something I believe in and give hope to at least one person in this world. It doesn't even have to be Africa. It can be China, India, Cuba, or even in the poverties of America. I want to be the difference. I have been thinking about this a lot.... and I think that's what I am most frustrated about.. I don't want a psychology degree... What I want most is to turn the light on in the dark... and help someone who needs it.