[some day]

Some days I feel like crying
Don’t matter if its rain or shine
I feel like my heart was broken
At least a million times
Some days I wake up dreaming
Feels like I never even woke
Answer life’s big question
As if it’s one big joke
Maybe it’s too soon to be sure but I
Really do believe that some day we’re gonna have it all
So I cry so hard it keeps the rhythm of a train
Rolling right along when the ride gets rough you got to carry on
Some days I feel like singing
I sit back and just groove the day away
Maybe I pick up a guitar and play what I want to play
Maybe it’s too soon to be sure but I
Really do believe that some day we’re gonna have it all
So I cry so hard it keeps the rhythm of a train
Rolling right along when the ride gets rough you got to carry on
Carry on,
You got to carry on
You got to carry on
You got to carry on
Today I feel like laughing
Seems to be no reason at all
And if the world stops spinning
I’m not afraid to fall
Maybe it’s too soon to be sure but I
Really do believe that some day we’re gonna have it all
So I cry so hard it keeps the rhythm of a train
Rolling right along when the ride gets rough you got to carry on

[r.i.p]

Death tends to come in 3's and 7's... I thought with MJ's passing that it was the end of the celebrity deaths for at least a while but it seems as though it will be coming in 7's this time around.

Ed McMahon
David Carradine
Michael Jackson
Farah Fawcett
Billy Mays
7-4-09 -- Steve "Air" McNair

you will all be missed

[decomposition]

My plants are dying :(. The only thing that is surviving well are "most" of the tomato plants and my cucumbers. All of my green beans are being eaten by bugs and going away for 7 days was a horrible idea for the plants. They needed water terribly and the only person who could give them water besides us was on vacation with us. OH WELL -- It is early in the summer... there is plenty of time to grow.

[deep]

Happy 100th Blog Post to Me!

I don't know why I am up this late. David and I deemed it too hot to sleep in the bedroom so we migrated out into the living room around 11:30pm. Now, here I am at 3AM, wide awake. I am watching my 6th episode of Family Guy and haven't had the slightest inclination of sleep.

David is sleeping on the floor so peacefully. Sometimes I wonder if this dysthymia is creeping up on me again. I remember feeling this way when I was severely depressed. I couldn't sleep and when I did sleep, it was for a short period of time. By the time I wake about 4 hours later, I feel refreshed and the process starts all over again. Why does this always happen to me?

It's sad how excited David and I get over cleaning the apartment. When in my life did I ever think that scrubbing a drip pan from the stove with an SOS pad would bring such enjoyment? I really have gotten old. Even David gets excited everytime we have a load of laundry to put in our washer/dryer. He loves that thing I think more than he loves me. teehee.

I am going home next weekend over the 4th of July. Mom told me Dad took vacation time so I figured this would be the best way I can show my appreciation since I missed Father's Day on the float trip. I just want him to know how much I love and appreciate him. (I love and appreciate my Mom just as much!) They both work so hard to give me the life that I am leading and I just want to make them proud. I am living pretty comfortably here in Warrensburg while they are killing themselves out in the work force... I am so very thankful to have the family I have. Ashley, don't think I have forgotten you :) tehe! Lately I have been missing you badly. I can't wait for you to be here in the States again so we can talk about everyone and laugh and have slumber parties with the chastity blanket! Oh man... it makes me laugh just thinking about it now.

Well, I suppose I am going to try and sleep now. My life is so boring now that I am sure that all of you are asleep and no one will ever see this entry. That's okay. Goodnight world.


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I wrote this when I was 15 years old. Where has all of my creativity gone? I miss being so caught up into myself that I was so dark and interesting.

"It's hard to be deep and introspective without people laughing in your face because they themselves are too nervous to get lost in thought."

It makes me shiver. I found an old blog of mine and literally sat in awe at all of the deep thoughts that I had written down. It's like a time capsule of artistic words. The thoughts of a young teenager is a scary world to explore. Sometimes I wish I could experience that side of me again.

[1300 miles]

350 miles to Eminence, MO for a 50 mile float trip in 2 days.
350 miles back to Warrensburg.
300 miles to Omaha Zoo the next day.
230 miles to Kansas City 2 days later.
70 miles to Warrensburg the next day.

In 1 week, David drove about 1300 miles. It was wonderful. :) There are so many pictures that I am going to make a picture album that I will update for everyone. I will let everyone know when there are pictures to see! Give me a few days to relax and they will be up! WooHoo!!

UPDATE: the float trip pictures are located HERE -- Click on the album to view pitures :)
UPDATE 2: Omaha Day 1 pics are up!! Click on the picture!

the float trip omaha 1

[VICTORY]

LAST DAY OF SUMMER SCHOOL

THEN 6 WEEKS OF FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[miracles]

The washer kicks ass!

David and I picked up on Friday from G-Ma Dottie's apartment and got it all loaded up! A BIG THANKS GOES OUT TO GRANDMA!! We had a rocky start at first when we got it home. Bringing it up our apartment stairs was a bit of a challenge. After we got it up we decided that we would put it in David's bathroom because it was furthest away from our bedroom when we're sleeping but close enough in the living room that we can hear it when it's done. AND -- Pictures now follow!!

Grandma and I! Don't we just look identical? LOL

David and the washer/dryer! He's been doing laundry for hours lol

me, extremely tired from cleaning for about 7 hours yesterday lol

we ended up taking the door off cause the washer wouldnt fit right, so we just put up a shower curtain lol

not even half the laundry left... there is more in my car..

our first load! hanging in our bathtub because the steam from the dryer left them a little moist, but after a few minutes they are BONE dry!! woohoo!! PS, grandma, the longest setting on the dryer is 120 minutes, not 90! silly goose!

the adapter to the sink that gave us so much trouble lol! we had to go all over the city to find a piece to make the washer/dryer adapter fit our sink!

A final picture of this beauty.
I'm serious, this is one of the best gifts David and I could have ever received. Thank you so much Grandma, for thinking of us and giving it to us for free. I know it cost a lot of money and for you to just allow us to have it is just more than I could have ever imagined. This is going to help us out a lot! (David has already done about 15 loads of laundry... he won't even let me get near it because he loves it so much!)




I do have a few requests for pictures of my bass I caught a few weekends ago!!

Very attractive picture of me, I know.. lol that's after 2 days of camping!


He had big teeth!! PLUS, he broke my lure!!!! Bastard!! heheh

[grandma]

A big THANK YOU To Grandma Dottie for the washer/dryer!

I will post pictures of my new baby when I pick it up on Friday.

I LOVE YOU!!!!

This will save us so much!