[My Wonderful Dad]

It's official. I am a flaveslave.

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I have cooked everything in there. Biscuits, cookies, chicken, beef, roasts, hamburger, brownies, rolls, tater tots.. etc.. EVERYTHING.

and I LOVE IT!

[girls night]

Mia took this picture of me last night... I love it. :o)


Betsy dragged me out of the apartment last night (not literally but a mental pull!) and had me go out with all of our friends to dinner at a night Italian Restaurant. Betsy paid for me and Mia drove (because I am poor). It was really fun actually. I enjoyed myself a lot. Here are some pictures.
PS my RDA test went pretty well!!!!
This is Mia. We pretended she was the birthday girl. :o) This is Megan and Betsy. :o) I love them both dearly.

Sarah with Betsy, looking fly! This is all of us. Sarah, Mia, Betsy, Me and Megan. We drove our waiter crazy!!

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Life is okay right now.

[pumpkins]

David and I carved pumpkins this afternoon in order to procrastinate cleaning our ridiculously messy apartment. Here goes to pictures.






These are our pumpkins. David's puking pumpkin and his little baby pumpkin he wanted, and my 3D pumpkin. It look me forever lol

[the deep end]

I feel like this song kind of represents my life right now. No, I'm not sad/depressed/lonely.. I just think that some of what this song is about is how my life is, stressed out in college, in a job that I don't have time for.. Reaching for and wanting just a little more, but giving in in the end when things get too hard just seems like something so much easier.

Enjoy.



Click Play.

Here are the lyrics. I edited a bit so it is easier to read/understand.

I built my life like a bike on a rigid frame, so nothing bends, it only breaks into pieces and pieces.
I wait for hope to arrive but it never came, leaving me with only pain inside.
I'm going off the deep end..

Holding on is harder than it seems when you're reaching for so much more. It seems so much easier to just give in when you're reaching for so much more.

Another wasted Saturday so here I say where nothing seems to ever change anyway..
All this hype about life being great, where's the love for me these days?
I'm going off the deep end..

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By the way. I got a card from an anonymous sender yesterday. It was a card to brighten my day with a $20 dollar bill on the inside from The Starving College Student Fairy. I still have not a clue as to who sent it.

Whoever is looking out for me.. thank you. It means more to me than you'll EVER know.

[anti-white]

These are the retarded hill billy ignorant people who are ruining this country.



Oh lordy, thank the all mighty that Sarah Palin is filled with the HOLY SPIRIT! Bring us from terrorism!! Yeah RIGHT!

Freaking idiots.

Why should we support McCain if these are the people he is drawing in? The people driven by hate and fear of change.

[alone]

"Never idealize each other. They will never live up to your expectations. Don't over analyze your relationships. Stop playing games. A growing relationship can only be nurtured by genuineness."

[flave 2.0]

Tonight was meal 2 made with the flavor wave. I LOVE it.

I made shake and bake chicken extra crispy in the flave. High for 20 minutes.

DELISH! It was soo juicy and incredibly crunchy on the outside.

Sorry the pictures suck, I'm using my phone... David's camera is Dead :-D

Green beans, Shake and Bake chicken breast, Mashed potatoes and Pasta salad!!

[irritation]

There are some things in this stupid life that you just can't ever change...

All you can do is hope.

[fondue]

David proposed Fondue Date Night tonight.

We prepared chicken, steak, shrimp, potatoes and mushrooms.
David is a master at making the broth. We used chicken bouillon cubes, a whole orange, lemon and lime, miller lite beer and we even threw in some green onions for flavor! (shock!)

Here are a few pictures of our delicious fondue.


Right as we went to sit down, I decided that I wanted to drink carbonated water. It completely exploded all over me and all over my plate, clothes and face.


I look like I peed my pants.. I probably lost a cup of my drink from the explosion.

I am so excited for this weekend because of rest and relaxation... that is, after my long hours at work tomorrow. UGH.

[betsy]

I'm over at Betsy's... all the time now. I am enjoying myself more because I am actually getting out of the apartment. It's really fun to just hang out with Betsy and her neighbor Megan. We are going to have fun tomorrow night!!!

David has even made a few friends here too so I know he's having a better time now.

I think David and I are going to the Casino tonight to eat a buffet. I don't want to wait until next week.

[oz 2.0]

SO.... David and I decided that Ozwald needs to start having funny hair cuts. This time, I decided to cut him like a Chinese Crested.

These two are pictures of Ozzie before..

You can see where I began shaving on his backside lol

These are Pictures of Ozwald after hahah
Here is Oz without clothes on.. PS ozzie loves clothes... srsly!




Here is oz in his favorite lightweight hoodie. When I get clothes out, he literally puts his head through it before I can get it on.. he loves it!

[goodbye]

Oscar, our time was short.

I still love you. I'm sorry I couldn't care for you...

[flave]

This is my first night trying the flave. I am cooking a Roast with new potatoes carrots and corn.

High 5, 15 minutes on each side.



I really hope it turns out okay!! I'm pretty sure it will. I just did my first flip over, just to make sure the meat browns on both sides!! I'm really excited!!!!



Thank you Mom and Dad!! I will post pictures of my meal once it's done!! I can't wait!!!!


UPDATE

THE FINAL PRODUCT!!!! :-D YUMMY!!!!

[upset]

I don't know what to do. I am distraught and upset.

Oscar isn't adjusting. At first we let me have free reign of the house. Ozwald would pee to mark territory and Oscar would pee over it. They both pee'd on everything. Oscar got into the trash and tore everything up inside the house that he could get a handle on. We decided to kennel him. He has been kenneled for the past 2 weeks when we aren't there. He gets to come out when we are home and hang out with us, but at night he goes back in because we can't trust him. He tears up his puppy pads and flips his water over along with his food. I'm scared he is miserable in there, but I feel I have no other choice in the matter but to kennel him. Is that me being selfish? Over the past month he has been extremely frieghtened of us. He won't come near us at all. We go to get him in his kennel and he backs away into the corner. We go to take him outside and he runs around before we can get the collar on. He even bit David today.

He has made vast improvements though. He can now go outside and potty when we take him on the leash and he even follows us around outside, behind us of course. He will even go up the stairs now which is an extreme improvement from when we first brought him home.

That's about all the improvement he has made. I'm scared to give him up because of the life that he could have to some other family, but I am afraid that I am not giving him the life he deserves. Am I a bad person to give him back to the adoption agency? If she brings Oscar to the store I will just die inside knowing that I gave up on this little helpless animal who needed me. What if he goes to an awful home? What if he gets mistreated? What if he never escapes the torment of being at an adoption agency until he dies because no one wanted to give him the time to adjust?

I have had 2 weeks extra time to get this dog to love me as much as I love him... but he won't love me back. I am scared, nervous.. and only have until Saturday to decide.

I wish David would help me make my decision but he keeps saying that it's my dog and my decision.

Am I a horrible person?