[mom]

My eyes are so puffy. I probably cried for 4 straight hours last night, and then passed out into my tear soaked pillow. I feel like such a baby.

My mom left for Korea today. I hope she knows how much I love and miss her already. I am praying for my Halmoni... I love her more than she will ever know. I feel so bad that I was such a bad grand daughter to her when I was 16. If I could change things now, I would sit there forever with her, even though I can't talk to her, I would just sit there and hold her hand. I have so much regret.

I love you Mom, I love you Halmoni, and...
I LOVE YOU DAD FOR THE AMAZING CINNABUN!! It was freaking amazing!!!

[tater tot]

Welcome to our apartment tater!

[happy easter!]

Happy Easter!

[cbase]

Today i took the c base college exam to make sure i'm not a complete idiot. Lucky for me, most of it came pretty easily. The math was exceptionally easy though most would say it was hard. The science portion was horrible. I haven't done science since freshman year of high school.

I'm home in kansas city until tomorrow. Everyone wants me to bar hop but that's not my style. Ever since the creepy ginger crotch thrust girl, I can't imagine going to another bar. She ruined me for life.

[going mobile]

Hello! This is my first mobile post! Now that i know i can post from my phone i will be updating much more often!
Love from the basement,
Rachael

[seven pounds]

I have officially lost 7 pounds!

It has only been about 2 weeks since becoming serious about this diet. I started right after spring break. :) I will go ahead and say that this is a major accomplishment! I know the first 10lbs are super easy to lose because a lot of it is just water weight but trust me.... 10lbs is not where I draw the line. I'm thinking more like 35lbs more....

This road hasn't been easy, but it's been getting easier every day. I even get to splurge a little on the weekends. Counting calories has by far helped David and I. I don't know how much he's lost because I didn't know how much he weighed 2 weeks ago but I am keeping track as of today.

This is the best thing that I've done for myself in a long time. I shouldn't have waited this long... But, any time is better than no time I suppose.

[fast and the furious]

I saw that movie tonight with all of my friends (actually all of David's friends... who I've recruited as my own). It wasn't good. I didn't think it was going to be good because I don't like car movies.... or cars in general but that's just me. I guess I just like deeper movies, not movies for dudes. Too many booty shakers as well ;) haha.

I do hate the movie theaters. The girls that were sitting behind me kept kicking my chair. I looked at them so they'd stop putting their shoes literally ON my head and they proceeded to start calling me names and telling their friends that I was fat and ugly.... plus like 100 other names they could think of. it kind of was an upsetting moment because it's not like I did anything. If it wasn't for my fear of jail, I would have leaped over my seat and.... well, I'm assuming you know the rest. It just really hurt my feelings. Girls can be so mean. It sucked too because I actually was wearing a nice dress and an sweater that matched.. Why pick on me on a day where I had at least a SHRED of confidence in myself and my looks?

We then ventured to Chris' house where we played Super Smash Bros. I forgot how fun that game is with friends. Now, we are back at my parents house.

David might be able to pick up his motorcycle tomorrow, but it's highly unlikely. I guess it's still better if he waits it out until tomorrow morning on the off chance they magically call and say, "WE FIXED IT, for real this time...." :)

Tomorrow (actually today because it is now past midnight) we are hanging out with David's mother and his sister. It's going to be really nice because I haven't seen either of them for a few weeks, so the reunion will be refreshing. We are doing Fairy Gardens for Debbie's birthday, which I think will be amazingly fun!!

Well, I am off to bed. I am very exhausted and could definitely use some sleep.

PS, I lost 5lbs since starting my diet. Hooray for me! :)

[jogging]

David and I walked to school today!! I was so very tired but it was definitely worth it. I already feel better about myself and it's just the first day of our exercise regiment!

I walked home alone because David had class, but after David was done he wanted to walk home also! So, I put on my tennis shoes, grabbed Oz and ventured out on my VERY FIRST JOG in probably 2 years!

I could only jog for a few minutes at a time, so I would walk to get my heart rate back down... and I am actually quite embarrassed to say that, but... I figured there is no shame in exercising, no matter how short or light the exercise may be.

I totaled about 5 minutes of jogging and 10 minutes of walking to meet David on his walk home. I wish I wasn't so winded! I jogged for 2 minutes and walked for about 5 then did it again.. it felt so nice. It felt good to get my heart rate up!

I hope I stay this motivated.